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The night was lonely.
Shao Cixin lay on her bed thinking about what happened during dinner.
Wen Zhihan rejected a boy.
And she was happy about it.
All the signs pointed to her liking Wen Zhihan…
She didn’t know where this love came from.
She couldn’t remember exactly when she fell in love with Wen Zhihan.
But she couldn’t let go of these feelings now and become not tempted by Wen Zhihan again—nor was she willing to.
She couldn’t explain what it felt like to like Wen Zhihan.
She only knew that she became happy whenever she thought of Wen Zhihan, and she became proud whenever she realized that she was the only person by Wen Zhihan’s side.
Only she had Wen Zhihan’s full consideration.
Did other people who liked Wen Zhihan get this type of treatment?
No.
Shao Cixin wished she could stand on the highest point in the world and show off with a loudspeaker, “Look, she is so good to me!”
Over and over again, she replayed the days she had spent with Wen Zhihan. After summoning up all her memories, Shao Cixin became more at ease.
Homosexuality was just that. It was neither illegal nor harmful to nature.
It’s just… she didn’t know if Wen Zhihan could like women too…
Shao Cixin went back to being frustrated all over again.
Under the snowy white sky, the time to review for finals quietly came.
Shao Cixin returned to their apartment with a large pile of books that contained the keys to her academic universe and honestly began reviewing the contents.
Wen Zhihan was also present.
Her finals were just as important, and Wen Xingyun knew not to occupy her time during this critical juncture, so Wen Zhihan didn’t plan on going home until the holidays.
The two of them mostly stayed at home, sitting at the same table and reviewing together. They would sometimes visit the library on a whim, with Xu Zhouzhou occasionally coming to join them.
Shao Cixin’s three former roommates would also sometimes join in—mostly because they wanted to see Wen Zhihan, this senior sister, up close.
Although Wen Zhihan was only a sophomore, she was already known to everyone in the school for her outstanding appearance.
Shao Cixin’s roommates quietly observed her and couldn’t help but marvel at her features.
—How could anyone in the world be so beautiful? God must have been too selfish when he carved her!
No noise was allowed in the library, so the three went on Q/Q to praise their senior sister’s beauty together, even dragging Shao Cixin along with them.
[Meng Meng]: Oh my god, your senior sister is too beautiful. She’s even more beautiful at this close up!
[Meng Meng]: No, that isn’t right. She’s our senior sister now.
[Meng Meng]: My god, her skin is so good. What kind of skincare products does she usually use?
[Shao Cixin]: Just the ordinary ones. After all, she’s just like me. Naturally beautiful~
[Xiao Bei]: Get out, you stinky bitch.
[Xiao Bei]: Speaking of which, is your senior sister really still single? She must have a lot of people pursuing her for her appearance.
[Xiao Bei]: Wow, Senior Sister’s standards must be so high…
[Xiao Bei]: Could it be that she doesn’t like men?
[Xiong Xiong]: It’s not impossible. After all, our senior sister is always by your side. What if she likes you hahaha @Shao Cixin
[Xiong Xiong]: I think you two are a good match. You’ve got this. Capture our Senior Sister and give our dorm some face!
Xiong Xiong’s words shot straight into Shao Cixin’s heart.
She and Wen Zhihan were a perfect match…?
That’s right. She and Wen Zhihan were a perfect match!
Wen Zhihan was sitting across from her. When she raised her eyes, she saw Shao Cixin holding her phone with a small smile on her face. She didn’t know what Shao Cixin was laughing at.
Turning her gaze slightly, Wen Zhihan glanced at the other freshmen, all of whom were looking down at their phones.
It appeared that these four were chatting during their review time…
For a while, Shao Cixin forgot why she was at the library.
After chatting and chatting, she suddenly received a message from Wen Zhihan.
[Senior Sister Wen]: Let’s read and review. You can play on your phone when we go home.
Shao Cixin instinctively raised her eyes, just in time to see Wen Zhihan slowly putting down her phone and looking over.
Their eyes met.
Shao Cixin obediently set down her phone under Wen Zhihan’s gentle gaze, straightened her back, and resumed her studying.
Wen Zhihan looked away.
She didn’t care about the others, but she still cared about this junior sister of hers.
But she had no idea that while Shao Cixin might look like she was reading a book, her junior sister’s mind was actually only filled with thoughts of herself, Wen Zhihan.
Xiong Xiong’s words had affected Shao Cixin’s mood, filling her with anticipation.
Maybe she and Wen Zhihan really had a chance…
This idea lingered in Shao Cixin’s mind.
For the next few days, she would always secretly glance at Wen Zhihan. Every time she snuck another look, the desire in her heart grew.
Why not?
What’s wrong with liking Wen Zhihan? How could she not like her?
So it must also be possible for Wen Zhihan to like her back…
Shao Cixin’s last final was scheduled for the following Wednesday afternoon.
Wen Zhihan’s final was a little earlier than hers. She would finish in the morning.
The night before, the two of them reviewed as usual.
With Wen Zhihan around, Shao Cixin didn’t have many chances to get distracted. This was because Wen Zhihan would catch her every time and send her straight back to her textbook.
Shao Cixin felt like the leader of the study inspection committee was sitting next to her.
Neither of them had any intention of spending all night studying, so they planned on going to bed early.
Their exams started in the morning, and they had just about finished studying from their books.
As soon as their finals were over and winter break began, the two of them would return to their respective homes and no longer see each other every day.
When Shao Cixin realized this, she couldn’t help but feel sad, and she began to have strange thoughts.
—She wanted to sleep with Wen Zhihan tonight.
“Senior sister, I want to sleep with you tonight. So…can I?”
She even took action.
When Wen Zhihan suddenly heard Shao Cixin’s request, she couldn’t help but stop in front of her door.
Shao Cixin actually offered to sleep in the same room as her…
As a selfish person, was it possible to refuse?
No.
She couldn’t ask for more.
“Okay.” Wen Zhihan smiled softly. She held out her hand. “Come with me.”
With joy dancing on her face, Shao Cixin ran over to take Wen Zhihan’s hand.
She urged, “Let’s go, let’s go.”
She was anxious, as if she thought the other person would regret it and turn her away.
They closed the door and turned on the bedside lamp.
Wen Zhihan signaled for Shao Cixin to lie down first while she went to close the window to prevent the cold wind from sneaking in.
After she lowered the blinds, she turned around. She was about to walk to her bed, but then she stopped and furrowed her brows.
Because she saw Shao Cixin wrapping the entire blanket around herself, like a rice dumpling.
Not a single inch was left for her.
“…”
Wen Zhihan was deeply puzzled. “Cixin, what are you doing?”
Did she want Wen Zhihan to go to the other room and get another blanket herself?
As soon as she finished speaking, she saw Shao Cixin roll to the side. Suddenly, half the blanket was left for her.
“I’m warming the quilt,” Shao Cixin said, lying flat on her back. “This way, you won’t be too cold when you get in bed.
“But I didn’t have enough time to warm it up, so there’s only a little bit of heat.
“I’ll warm your bed for you properly next time.”
Wen Zhihan paused. She smiled in understanding, then slowly opened the blanket and lay down.
The two faced each other, looking into one another’s eyes.
After a while, Wen Zhihan’s brows curled. She asked, “Is there a next time?”
Shao Cixin’s lashes twitched, and she said in astonishment, “Ah? There won’t be a next time?
“Could it be that you don’t like sleeping with me?”
Then she frowned and pretended to get up. “Okay, then I’ll go back to my room and sleep by myself. I won’t bother you anymore…”
Just like a pitiful little girl.
Wen Zhihan quickly stretched out her hand to hold Shao Cixin down, gripping her tightly for fear that she would really leave.
“It’s not that I don’t like it. I just wanted to make sure it’s true and that there’ll be a next time,” she said. “I’m afraid that you’ll go back on your word.”
Shao Cixin smiled and, without thinking, moved closer to Wen Zhihan.
She looked at Wen Zhihan’s face, which was so near her own, and said sweetly, “Of course. As long as jiejie doesn’t dislike me, I’ll sleep with her and warm her bed every night, and I will never go back on my word.
“It’s free. No payment required.”
Jiejie…
It was the first time that Wen Zhihan heard Shao Cixin call her so sweetly.
She had to admit that when this name came out of Shao Cixin’s mouth, it affected her a lot, like a soft candy that melted her heart.
The bedside lamp’s warm orange light silently merged the distance between them.
Under the soft, gauze-like light, Wen Zhihan curled the corner of her lips.
She couldn’t help but raise her finger and tap the tip of Shao Cixin’s nose. “You call me so sweetly. Do you need my help with something?”
“No,” Shao Cixin said shamelessly, “I’ve always been a little sweetie.”
When Wen Zhihan heard Shao Cixin say this, her voice involuntarily became gentler, as if she was coaxing a child. “Really?”
“Really~”
“Then say it again.”
“Jiejie~”
Shao Cixin saw the smile spread in Wen Zhihan’s eyes, with not a trace of rejection.
This encouraged her so much that she couldn’t help but take it a step further. She wanted to initiate physical contact with her.
So she said seriously, “Did I say it so softly that you couldn’t hear me?”
Wen Zhihan: “?”
Shao Cixin said, “Then I’ll get closer.”
Before Wen Zhihan could react, Shao Cixin was already hugging her.
Shao Cixin pressed her body tightly against Wen Zhihan and came close to her ear, calling softly, “Jiejie.”
She smiled against the back of Wen Zhihan’s shoulder. “Do you like it? Jiejie.”
Her warm breath brushed past Wen Zhihan’s ear gently like a soft feather.
Wen Zhihan’s heart began beating rapidly and her calm inner lake suddenly turned into a mess. She was so close to the person she liked.
She curled and stretched her fingers before finally giving in and gently placing her hands on Shao Cixin’s waist.
“I like it,” she admitted, but she didn’t dare to keep Shao Cixin up too late, so she said helplessly, “Be good and go to bed early. We still have our finals tomorrow.”
Fortunately, Shao Cixin listened to her and lay down obediently.
But she lay down right in Wen Zhihan’s arms.
Like a coquettish puppy, the soft top of her hair rubbed against Wen Zhihan’s throat.
Wen Zhihan: “…”
She could no longer regulate her heartbeat.
Shao Cixin had done it on purpose.
She wanted to hold Wen Zhihan as she slept, she wanted Wen Zhihan to take her in her arms, and she wanted to arrogantly and unreasonably dominate Wen Zhihan’s heart.
In other words, she wanted all of the good things about Wen Zhihan to belong to her alone.
“Jiejie, I’m a little cold,” Shao Cixin said pitifully. “Can you hold me to sleep?”
Shao Cixin started to look forward to Wen Zhihan’s response and movements.
If Wen Zhihan didn’t push her out, then she would continue to be just as enthusiastic and keep on attacking her heart!
But if Wen Zhihan did push her out, then she would have no choice but to restrain herself, be conscientious, and take it one step at a time…
She prayed silently in her heart that if she exchanged three of her hairs, Wen Zhihan would not reject her.
—Pusa bless, Jade Emperor bless, Buddha bless!
The next second, she saw Wen Zhihan’s hand move slowly, pulling the blanket over the two of them. Then Wen Zhihan lay back beside her and hugged her tightly.
A gentle reply fell in Shao Cixin’s ear. “Okay.”
Shao Cixin was ecstatic!
Firecrackers set off in her heart amidst the sound of beating gongs and drums. She pursed her lips tightly to prevent herself from accidentally exclaiming her happiness out loud.
Wen Zhihan didn’t push her away!
Next time, she could be even more forward!
She just wanted to like Wen Zhihan!!!
Meanwhile, Wen Zhihan could clearly feel Shao Cixin’s reliance on her, and she felt anxious and happy at the same time.
Did Shao Cixin do all this because she liked her, or simply because she thought of her as a sister she could depend on?
Wen Zhihan hoped it wasn’t the latter.
Winter vacation arrived.
The two of them packed up their things and went home.
As soon as they were on vacation, Wen Zhihan had more time to study with Wen Xingyun. She did not spend her days leisurely.
Shao Cixin was not idle either, working as an intern at her father’s company for two weeks.
Not only did she learn a lot, but she also completed the homework she was assigned at school. She even had time to hang out with her classmates and Liang Xuefei.
By now, she had successfully come out to Liang Xuefei, and every time they got together, they would only talk about Wen Zhihan.
Liang Xuefei encouraged Shao Cixin to find Wen Zhihan during the holidays.
If Wen Zhihan didn’t want to see her, then she could use the excuse that she was busy.
If Wen Zhihan wanted to see her, then she would have time no matter how busy she was.
If the situation was in the middle, neither good nor bad, then it meant Shao Cixin needed to continue to work harder.
Shao Cixin had actually wanted to find Wen Zhihan for a long time, but she was afraid of disturbing her work and didn’t dare to act.
After hearing Liang Xuefei’s encouragement, she became motivated again.
That’s right, she had never even tried to make an appointment with Wen Zhihan, so how could she already count out Wen Zhihan as someone who was so busy she didn’t want to see her?
She had to ask and give it a try first.
Since that’s what she thought, that’s what she did. After arriving home and taking a shower, Shao Cixin sat on the bed with her head on her blankets and her phone in her hands.
She was ready to send Wen Zhihan a message.
[Shao Cixin]: Wen Zhihan, are you free?
[Senior Sister Wen]: Did something happen?
The reply came in a second.
She seemed available.
After Shao Cixin got Wen Zhihan’s message, she confidently began chatting with her and acting coquettishly towards her.
[Shao Cixin]: I haven’t gone out with you this break yet.
[Shao Cixin]: Sister, I want to play with you~
As Wen Zhihan read the messages appearing on her phone’s display, she couldn’t help but think of the Shao Cixin who relied on her on the night of the final exam.
Delicate and playful, beyond cute.
Wen Zhihan also missed Shao Cixin and wanted to see her.
Fortunately, she was free these next few days.
Wen Zhihan lowered her eyes and prepared to type out her response. After thinking for a while, she raised her finger and pressed the call button instead.
—She wanted to hear Shao Cixin’s voice.
The call quickly connected, and Shao Cixin’s playful tone came from the receiver.
“Hello? Is this our beautiful senior sister Wen?”
A smile instantly bloomed between Wen Zhihan’s brows and eyes.
She couldn’t suppress her happiness at the sound of Shao Cixin’s voice. After all, her junior sister was always so cute and charming.
“It’s me,” she confirmed lightly. “Where does our Cixin want to go?”
Shao Cixin had always liked Wen Zhihan’s voice. Especially on the phone, where it had a soft, low magnetism to it, extremely sexy.
She could hold Wen Zhihan in her arms and do nothing but listen to her voice for a day!
Shao Cixin lay in bed and said casually, “It looks like you’re free these few days, but the weather has gotten colder too.”
She pondered about their options. “Where should we go…”
Shao Cixin sat up.
“Are you at home? How about I hang out with you at your house tomorrow? This way, I can also visit aunt and uncle. I haven’t seen them for a while.”
Wen Zhihan had no objection and said in approval, “My parents will be very happy to see you.”
Shao Cixin reciprocated politely, “My parents would also be very happy to see you.”
Wen Zhihan smiled. “Then it’s decided. See you tomorrow.”
Shao Cixin beamed. “Yeah, see you tomorrow.”
“Good night,” Wen Zhihan gently said.
“Good night,” Shao Cixin softly responded.
They exchanged concise words with a final tone, but no one ended the call. They were both waiting for the other person to hang up, a secret reluctance hidden with every second that passed.
After a while—
“Aren’t you going to hang up?” Shao Cixin asked.
“I’m waiting for you to hang up,” Wen Zhihan said. “Cixin won’t hang up? Didn’t you used to hang up so easily before?”
Why was her junior sister different today? Was there something she was hiding from her?
The Shao Cixin in question who always used to hang up the phone without any restraints: “…”
You see, this Shao Cixin was no longer the heartless Shao Cixin of the past.
The only thing you could blame her for was being slow in love and not realizing how good her senior sister was sooner.
Shao Cixin had to give herself some respect.
So she said confidently, “No, I want to wait for you to hang up. You are older than me, so how could I just hang up on you so casually? It’s so rude. I’ve already deeply reflected on my actions, so please don’t worry!”
Wen Zhihan laughed. “Then let’s talk for a while?”
This suggestion encompassed Shao Cixin’s desires. “Okay!”
She immediately took the initiative to change the topic. “What have you been up to recently? Are you helping your dad? Are you busy? You have it so hard…”
She nagged, “You can’t always be busy. You also have to rest and eat well.”
Wen Zhihan listened and nodded.
She felt that Shao Cixin had really become different.
Shao Cixin seemed to care about her and talk to her more than before. She was more lively and playful.
Although Wen Zhihan didn’t know the reason for this, she thought it was good. At the very least, it meant that Shao Cixin liked her more.
She hoped that Shao Cixin’s actions were not based on a whim and that this “like” would continue on to become an even stronger “love”—until returned her feelings.
Joanna knew that Shao Cixin was coming the next day, so she waited at the door early. She liked this daughter of the Shao family very much. Shao Cixin was beautiful, cheerful, and extremely cute, and she was the sweetheart of all the elders.
Wen Zhihan also came downstairs to wait for Shao Cixin.
Soon, she and her mother saw the Shao family car park in front of the villa.
Shao Cixin, who was wearing a furry cross-body bag, cheerfully greeted them.
“Jiejie! Auntie! I’m coming!”
Then she turned around and said goodbye to her driver.
“Uncle Ming, be careful on the road.”
“Okay. Have fun, little miss. I’ll pick you up tonight.”
“Yes, yes.”
Shao Cixin carefully arranged her clothes and walked towards the main gate.
When she arrived, Joanna opened her arms and welcomed her warmly. “My little sweetheart, you’ve finally come to play.”
Shao Cixin hugged her with a smile on her face and said sweetly, “Hi, auntie.”
Then she looked at Wen Zhihan, winked, and waved her hand.
Wen Zhihan smiled.
She was happy that her family also liked the person she loved very much.
Her little sweetie’s cuteness was indeed suitable for all ages, regardless of gender.
Joanna kneaded Shao Cixin’s face. She added with a smile, “It’s rare for Xin Xin to come. Since it’s a holiday, why don’t you play for two days? You can stay over at our house tonight!”
A great opportunity suddenly presented itself to Shao Cixin.
She was overjoyed, but she couldn’t make her feelings too apparent, so she tried to refuse like she was receiving a red envelope during the New Year. “Is that okay? I don’t want to trouble you…”
“You’re not troubling us,” Wen Zhihan answered for her mother. “Stay for two days. You can sleep and talk with me.”
After all, how could Wen Zhihan fail to make use of her mother’s unknowing assistance?
—It was too good of an opportunity!
Shao Cixin was so excited she couldn’t refuse any longer. She responded obediently. “Okay, then I’ll bother you for one more day.”
Winter nights came quickly, and in the blink of an eye, it was time to rest.
Shao Cixin didn’t bring any pajamas, so she wore Wen Zhihan’s.
As she washed herself, she looked at the pajamas hanging on the wall.
When she remembered that the owner of these pajamas was the person she liked, she was so happy she wanted to sing.
In the bathroom, the corners of her mouth never once lowered for a second.
She was going to wear Wen Zhihan’s pajamas, sleep on Wen Zhihan’s bed, call Wen Zhihan “jiejie,” and have Wen Zhihan hold her in her arms.
Did any other secret admirers receive such treatment? No!
She was the only one! Shao Cixin thought with great joy.
When she strolled out of the bathroom, she saw Wen Zhihan sitting in front of the window, her eyes trained on her computer.
When Wen Zhihan looked in her direction, Shao Cixin caught the gold-rimmed glasses on the bridge of her nose, and her heart began beating so fast that it was almost unbelievable.
These elegant and thin glasses inexplicably made Wen Zhihan even more attractive, as if they had been molded for her since the day they were created.
“Cixin, what are you doing standing there in a daze?” Wen Zhihan’s gentle question fell into Shao Cixin’s ears.
She came back to her senses. Her eyes relaxed, and she didn’t hesitate to praise, “Wen Zhihan, you look even better with those glasses on! I really like it!”
Wen Zhihan was slightly startled when she heard this and asked hesitantly, “Really?”
This was the first time she wore these golden glasses in front of Shao Cixin.
If Shao Cixin said she liked them, then these glasses would gloriously serve the purpose of pleasing her.
Shao Cixin nodded firmly. “Of course.”
She walked to a free chair and sat down. She held her chin, looking straight into Wen Zhihan’s handsome eyes. “Our Senior Sister Wen looks good no matter how she dresses.”
Wen Zhihan felt somewhat embarrassed by Shao Cixin’s praise. The tips of her ears turned slightly red.
She helplessly reached out and rubbed the top of Shao Cixin’s head. “You’re exaggerating.”
“How could I exaggerate?” Shao Cixin was dissatisfied. “You’re beautiful. You’re the most beautiful in the world! If anyone objects, then their objection is invalid. There are no rebuttals allowed!”
Wen Zhihan found Shao Cixin amusing. What a domineering referee.
Shao Cixin turned and looked at Wen Zhihan’s room again.
This was not the first time she had been in Wen Zhihan’s bedroom, but it was the first time she was spending the night over.
She once again saw the ceramic Shiba Inu sitting beside Wen Zhihan’s bed.
This was the gift she had brought back from her summer vacation during her second year of high school. She didn’t expect it to stay with Wen Zhihan by her bedside all the way until now.
When she noticed in the past, she was just happy that Wen Zhihan didn’t lose her gift. Now, under the guidance of love, she saw it differently.
“Wen Zhihan, it turns out that you’ve always been taking care of the gifts I gave you.”
After saying this, Shao Cixin saw Wen Zhihan smile softly. “Of course, because Cixin is important.”
Her straightforward response wooshed like an arrow, exploding Shao Cixin’s heart with fireworks containing unspeakable amounts of joy.
She said that she was important….Wen Zhihan said that she was important!
She must have me in her heart too!
This time, Shao Cixin openly displayed her emotions in front of Wen Zhihan.
“Wen Zhihan, when you said I was important, I became very happy.”
Wen Zhihan looked up and saw the satisfied smile on Shao Cixin’s face.
Just like gazing upon everything blooming in the spring, Wen Zhihan suddenly felt healed.
Her mood became light and relaxed.
She was glad that Shao Cixin had taken her consideration seriously.
Meanwhile, Shao Cixin leaned on the table, looking at the person she liked with awe in her eyes. Suddenly, she had a lot of thoughts.
If a person must fall in love with someone in their life, then couldn’t the person Wen Zhihan like be her?
Even the heavens never stipulated that a person could only like the opposite sex, so who could arbitrarily force Wen Zhihan’s partner to be a man?
And if there was really a chance that Wen Zhihan could like women…
Shao Cixin suddenly made a very bold decision—
Then she wanted Wen Zhihan to like her!
She wanted to bend her!!
The author (热到昏厥) has something to say:
I want the person who likes me to like me more!
Sweet or not! Sweet or not! Wengu Zhixin is too sweet!
This IF line should almost be over. Should. That’s right!
Looking at it this way, I’ve written quite a lot…
